Save me...

I guess that you could say life is like surfing. I mean, sometimes you are riding high on a wave, and sometimes you are crashing down into the bottom of the ocean-rolling and tossing and turning.

At times like those, that is when you need other people to help you. So, when I am tossing and turning and rolling, I might ask for your hand. You know, to pull me out of the watery depths. Keep me alive. Save me.

Peer...Coaching?

At my school, we have a place called "The Study Center". It is a place where students come if they are not doing well in school in order for some extra help. Now, I go there every Thursday, not to receive help, but to give it. It can be akward at times, because I am helping people my age study. I feel stupid because I know almost nothing more than they do, I just know how to take tests. I don't really like coaching them because I feel like they think I am superior to them, when we both know that I am not. I suppose they understand how I feel, and they feel the same way. But if they would just ask for help, it would be so much less akward. As in, we could both concentrate on the work instead of concentrating on how akward it is. As it is, we stare at each other the entire period, and it is my duty to ask if they have any work to do. I feel like the mother asking her child, "What do you have to work on today?". Just add on sweetie and there you have it. I guess we make it akward my thinking that it is. Oh well, this is making my brain hurt. I suppose I should just go study history.

The Humans are Dead...

There is a song called, "The Humans Are Dead" that is actually quite funny. It is sung from the perspective of robots that have taken over the world. The only reason I type about it right now is because it is stuck in my head. My friends tell me to get off, so I will listen, this once.

Laughing Baby

An amazingly funny clip of a baby laughing. If you don't laugh along, then part of you must not be human...

Unexplainable...

Have you ever had that feeling where all of the sudden, you are extremely happy? You just can't explain it, but everything seems to be going your way. You may still have problems, but they suddenly just don't seem as big as they used to be. Perhaps you see "the light at the end of the tunnel". Or maybe, you just realize that your problems aren't the end of the world. All you have to do is your best and you know its good enough. Or maybe it isn't, but there is nothing you can do about that. The world is such a much better place when you realize that you can't control it. That you only need to make life better for everyone else, and you know that you will have done your job. Isn't it wonderful to know that as long as you try your best, you don't have to listen to anything bad that people say about you. It's a beautiful feeling.

G.O.

The GO is wonderful. It is an amazing place. It has light, warmth, beauty, peacefulness, soothing sounds, and is an overall wonderland.

Perhaps you wonder what the GO is. It is a place in which you can be yourself. A place in which no one else will venture. Most people instead stay in their houses, on their computers, playing video games. And when I am finished typing these thoughts, I will venture into the GO and leave this laptop here, sitting, waiting for me to come back and type again. And I will have to come back. Only because the GO can be peaceful, but also harsh. And it is during those harsh times in which I sit here and type, with a mug of hot cocoa by my side. Yum...

Still don't know what the GO is?

If I tell you, you have to promise to check it out.

GO...Great Outdoors.

Grateful...

I sit and type on a new computer.

A new laptop. MY laptop. It's like, impossible for me to believe. That this is mine. For me. To use. No one else.

Oh dear.....I think that I am hyperventilating.

Thank you, Mom and Dad, for this gift. Thank you so much. It is better than I could have ever imagined. And so helpful!

I love you guys.

Life is looking up.

Never before have I understood the phrase "Life is a roller coaster of emotions" better than I do now.

When I re-read this blog, I see the growth in my writing. I feel the emotions again as I write. And, somehow, I know that I am different.

I am a different person than I was before. It's actually pretty easy to see. And finally, life seems to be looking up. At least for me.

It's looking up, and I know that soon, my life will be mine. My choices, my decisions, my time, my generosity. My life.

It's a pretty scary thought. But an exciting one as well. Because I know that while I am sad that this part of my life is ending--these four years of high school have been great--I also know that I am about to start something new. Something completely different than ever before.

Something like me.

So, my friends, who have followed this blog throughout the past, giving me support, I thank you. You are amazing, and I hope you know it. And as we start our new lives together, let's not forget these years, and not waste the last one. We have a year and a half of high school left.

Let's make it count.