College

I don't know what I'm supposed to write. But that's ok. It's just a blog, right?

This is it

I leave tomorrow morning.

I'm scared. But I can do this. I know I can.

I'm excited. But I can't let myself get overexcited.

I'm sad. But with a scent of happiness.

I'm ready.

Getting Closer

The time to leave has almost come.

I'm getting ready. And nervous. I mean...whew. I'm leaving. Which is exciting. But can I make it out there? I'm just starting to realize how terrifying the world is. And that scares me a bit.

But I think that I can do it.

I know that I can do it.

I'm just going to have to put some effort into it. Which is doable. I hope.

Nah. I need to think positive. That's doable. Way easy. I can do this. I know I can do this.

At least, I think I know...

Different Perspectives

It's crazy to me to think about how the best day of my life could be the worst of someone else's. I mean...I come home in the happiest mood ever and somehow, someone else feels like committing suicide.

Granted, that's an extreme example. But think about it. So many people in the world. So many experiences. And one of yours that you think is the best in the world could have repercussions that make someone else want to die. I don't know, it kind of puts a damper on my good days.

So many things to be thankful for. And yet we aren't as happy as we should be. So many have so much less, yet are so much more thankful. It's a vicious cycle. The more you have, the more you want.

Perspectives.

Cool.

Politics

I realized something recently.

You know how politicians always get the bad rep? They're always the ones twisting the words around, answering a question with another question, never having anything direct to say. Why do we hate them so much?

Disregard the fact that they seem to never know how to lead our country. Or that they are oblivious to our wants and wishes. Never mind that they say they will stand for one thing and then do another. Overlook their vanity and high paychecks. Avert your gaze from their affairs and involvement in things entirely un-political, such as movies and commercials and "green" campaigns. Forget all of that stuff.

I think that we hate them because we see the potential for each one of us to be exactly like them. I know that if I had as much power as they do, I would think to myself. "Screw the people, I know what's best." We all tell ourselves that we could do better. But could we? Living on not only a national stage, but a global stage? It would be difficult.

Now, before you come and egg my house for the things that I'm saying, let me get one thing straight. In no way do I endorse the politicians who currently hold office. I disagree with everything that they stand for and if I could, I would see them out of any position of power.

But I do like to keep an open mind. And so all that I'm saying is that I get it, politics is hard.

Then again, you were the one who ran, right?

Decisions

So I've been thinking lately.

I'm saving money. Doing the right thing. I'm tired of regret. I'm only 18 for God's sake. Regret shouldnt be a part of my life yet.

But I'm deciding who I am. Who I want to be. I think I'm getting it.