Timeline

Time is continually ticking away.

As each year progresses, it becomes a continually smaller fraction of our entire life. So, each year seems to go faster then the one before it because it is a smaller portion of our lives.

It's an exponential cycle that we cannot escape. When we are 75, one year is 1/75th of our life. But when we are 3, one year is 1/3rd of our life. So it seems to get faster as time goes on.

I think that it's hard to actually measure time. It goes by in so many different ways for different people. Some people complain that it drags on. Others complain because it goes too quickly. Me? I'm somewhere in the middle.

I'm so disappointed with myself that I didn't make the most of the time that I had in high school. I wish that I would have gotten to know the people that I met senior year as a freshman. But I was too set in my ways, too scared to branch our to new people that I missed out on a lot of fun.

I wish that I had done more. Tried more things. Because I am quickly realizing that my life is gettting shorter and shorter. I have so much to do, and so much that I have not done. I used to think that I was doing so much with my life. I was busy all the time. Now I realize that I have done nothing.

I have gone to school.

I have had the same friends for years.

I need to meet new people. Try new things. Live. I want to live my life. No longer will I pass each day without realizing that it is another that I have lost. I do not want each day to be a day that I lose. I want it to be a memory that I gain. And to make this happen, I'm going to have to work hard.

I want to look back and wish I could live my life over again. Not because I would do it differently...but because I would do it the same way again because I loved it so much.

To experience everything I experience for the first time. Never again will I know the wonder of getting a dollar under my pillow from the tooth fairy. Never again will I see the ocean for the first time. Never again will I fall in love for the first time.

I just wish that I would have been a bit more wise earlier. I still have a long way to go.