Complications

Yea. I'm having complications with my heart problems. I haven't spoken to him in a while. Do I call him, or do I not? Do I tell him, or do I not? Why don't I know? Shouldn't I know myself better than this? Shouldn't I know what to do?

I really want to talk to him. I'm kind of addicted to our conversations. Wait...that sounds bad.

I'm...I...hmm.

I guess I just really like talking to him. And I used to talk to him every night. I haven't talked to him for over a week now. Am I just being an idiotic girl? I just get so frustrated with myself!

I just wish he would call me. That would clear a few things up.